:: my mum ... number one !

you are the number one for me ... mum ..

I was a foolish little child

Crazy things I used to do

And all the pain I put you through

Mama now I'm here for you

For all the times I made you cry

The days I told you lies

Now it's time for you to rise

For all the things you sacrificed

Oooh

If I could turn back time rewind

If I could make it undone I swear that I would

I would make it up to you

Oooh

If I could turn back time rewind

If I could make it undone I swear that I would

I would make it up to you

Mom I'm all grown up now

I'ts a brand new day

I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday

Mom I'm all grown up now

And it's not too late

I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday

You know you are the number one for me

You know you are the number one for me

You know you are the number one for me

Oh oh

number one for me

Now I finally understand

That famous line

About the day I'd face in time

Coz now I have a child of mine

Even though I was so bad

I've learnt so much from you

Now I'm trying to do it too

Love my kids the way you do

Oooh

If I could turn back time rewind

If I could make it undone I swear that I would

I would make it up to you

Oooh

If I could turn back time rewind

If I could make it undone I swear that I would

I would make it up to you

Mom I'm all grown up now

I'ts a brand new day

I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday

Mom I'm all grown up now

And it's not too late

I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday

You know you are the number one for me

You know you are the number one for me

You know you are the number one for me

Oh oh

number one for me

There is no one in this world

That can take your place

Oooh I'm sorry for ever taken you for granted

I will use every chance I get

To make you smile

Whenever I'm around you

Now I will to try to love you

Like you love me

Only God knows how much you mean to me

Oooh

If I could turn back time rewind

If I could make it undone I swear that I would

I would make it up to you

Oooh

If I could turn back time rewind

If I could make it undone I swear that I would

I would make it up to you

Mom I'm all grown up now

I'ts a brand new day

I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday

Mom I'm all grown up now

And it's not too late

I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday

The number one for me

The number one for me

The number one for me

Oh oh

number one for me

I was a foolish little child

Crazy things I used to do

And all the pain I put you through

Mama now I'm here for you

For all the times I made you cry

The days I told you lies

Now it's time for you to rise

For all the things you sacrificed

Oooh

If I could turn back time rewind

If I could make it undone I swear that I would

I would make it up to you

Oooh

If I could turn back time rewind

If I could make it undone I swear that I would

I would make it up to you

Mom I'm all grown up now

I'ts a brand new day

I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday

Mom I'm all grown up now

And it's not too late

I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday

You know you are the number one for me

You know you are the number one for me

You know you are the number one for me

Oh oh

number one for me

Now I finally understand

That famous line

About the day I'd face in time

Coz now I have a child of mine

Even though I was so bad

I've learnt so much from you

Now I'm trying to do it too

Love my kids the way you do

Oooh

If I could turn back time rewind

If I could make it undone I swear that I would

I would make it up to you

Oooh

If I could turn back time rewind

If I could make it undone I swear that I would

I would make it up to you

Mom I'm all grown up now

I'ts a brand new day

I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday

Mom I'm all grown up now

And it's not too late

I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday

You know you are the number one for me

You know you are the number one for me

You know you are the number one for me

Oh oh

number one for me

There is no one in this world

That can take your place

Oooh I'm sorry for ever taken you for granted

I will use every chance I get

To make you smile

Whenever I'm around you

Now I will to try to love you

Like you love me

Only God knows how much you mean to me

Oooh

If I could turn back time rewind

If I could make it undone I swear that I would

I would make it up to you

Oooh

If I could turn back time rewind

If I could make it undone I swear that I would

I would make it up to you

Mom I'm all grown up now

I'ts a brand new day

I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday

Mom I'm all grown up now

And it's not too late

I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday

The number one for me

The number one for me

The number one for me

Oh oh

number one for me

:: good news plus bad news

happy mmg happy 

tpi sehappy tu

siang happy2 news jea

bila malam bad news

. 

totally frust 

2 org yg aq syang xbg

x izinkan

.

pastu boleh pulak kan aq x buat apa2 mlm nie 

sungguh buang masa 

.
betul kata kak marini
jgn terlalu mmberi pengharapan..
bila x dpt dicapai
totally frustrated
sgt
but i dun no lah
buat xtahu jea lah ..
fokus on my study
n my life


PLAN:: MERONGGENG SORG2 ..pt dh masuk kan?? heheh ..  nak g mane ea ..
YES !! dah dpt idea !!
XNAK BLK KG [Merajuk]

i hate dis situation !!!

. 

ya Allah

:: good news plus bad news

happy mmg happy 

tpi sehappy tu

siang happy2 news jea

bila malam bad news

. 

totally frust 

2 org yg aq syang xbg

x izinkan

.

pastu boleh pulak kan aq x buat apa2 mlm nie 

sungguh buang masa 

.

i hate dis situation !!!

. 

ya Allah

:: good news plus bad news

happy mmg happy 

tpi sehappy tu

siang happy2 news jea

bila malam bad news

. 

totally frust 

2 org yg aq syang xbg

x izinkan

.

pastu boleh pulak kan aq x buat apa2 mlm nie 

sungguh buang masa 

.

i hate dis situation !!!

. 

ya Allah

:: kisah hati yg sakit

melarikan diri itu bukan caranya 

tapi itulah aq 

jangan dicontohi 

assalamualaikum 

hari jumaat penghulu segala hari

hati yang sakit itu adalah aq 

seminggu di upm bukan bererti aq telah ready untuk 13 mggu yg bakal menyusul

oh,agaks peliks ayat aq yg x brape nk phm nie kan 

nie yg betul ..

bile hati tgh sakit, wasilah tarbiyah pun aq sanggup skip

maafkan ku kak.ipah... maafkn aq ya Allah ... maafkan aq Nurfatin,maafkan aq maafkan aq

aq xbersedia... pergi dgn hati yg xrela akan menyebabkan hati aq menjadi lebh keras dan keras lagi

tpi hakikatnya hidayah itu milik Allah kan .. 

aq terlalu cepat mmbuat andaian / mmbuat keptsan untk org lain  [ #diri sendri]

NAMUN....

aq mmg x bersedia

=======================================

Tuhan betapa aku malu

Atas semua yang Kau beri

Padahal diriku terlalu sering membuatMU kecewa 

Entah mungkin karna ku terlena

Sementara Engkau beri aku kesempatan berulang kali

Agar aku kembali 

Dalam fitrahku sebagai manusia

Untuk menghambakanMU 

Betapa tak ada apa-apanya aku dihadapanMU

Reff:

Aku ingin mencintaiMU setulusnya,

Sebenar-benar aku cinta 

Dalam do`a

Dalam ucapan 

Dalam setiap langkahku 

Aku ingin mendekatiMU selamanya 

Sehina apapun diriku 

Kuberharap untuk bertemu denganMU ya Rabbi

=============================================

sebulan di rumah , aq biarkan ia berlalu begitu sahaja

selain dari menghabiskan masa bersama abg

aq jarang menghabiskan masa dgn Allah, mak & abah

maafkan aq

sesungguhnya aq seorg yg lain di rumah

kerana aq pemalu dan pendiam di rumah

tetapi kecoh, byk mulut bila bersama teman2

itulah aq

bila kita meletakan target yg salah, akhirnya kita juga yg tersasar

lepas nie mmg dh xkan bertarget sebegitu

setelah difikirkan, aq faham kenapa aq jadi sebegitu rupe

## kerana aq takut akan hakikat kehidupan yg sebenarnye

kecian kan aq nie... naper perlu takut?

sbb aq xbersedia

nk tggu sampai bile??

ia .. kita xade lagi masa

 maafkan aq Nurfatin

bw diri pulang, untuk mengelak

dlm diri rase bersalah kpd diri sendri

mencari ubat yg jauh

mak

semoga terubat

xtahu ianya berkesan atau x?

masih dilema

...

.

.

.

akhirnya, 

Allah suka bg suprise kat kite kan 

sweet kan Allah tu

'jgn lepaskan hidayah yg Allah dah bg'

bila hati jadi lembut, tenang untuk mmbuat kebaikan, jgn lepaskan sbb mungkin itu peluang terakhir kite kot.

siapa tahu 

alhamdulillah

itu saja ungkapan yg mampu aq lafazkan

semoga hati ini Allah masih jaga

semoga hati ini masih gagah

semoga hati ini terus kuat

semoga hati ini bersedia ditarbiyah

semoga hati ini terus lembut menerima nasihat

semoga hati ini terus sihat

semoga hati ini sabar

semoga hati ini terus berada di landasan yg sebenar

Amin ..

akhirnya aq decide xjadi blk kampung

dan akan menghadiri daurah sabtu nie 

doakan yg terbaik untuk diri ini 

hanya mengharapkan redha Allah

cukuplah

baru dapat rasekan [TERUK KAN!!!]

betapa baik nya Allah

tetap sayang tetap sayang tetap syang

kpd hambanya yg masih ingat lupa ingat lupa kpd NYA

nak highlight bait2 lagu yg sgt menusuk hati ini 

bisa cair, bisa gugur air mata ini 

" Tuhan betapa aku malu

Atas semua yang Kau beri

Padahal diriku terlalu sering membuatMU kecewa 

Entah mungkin karna ku terlena

Sementara Engkau beri aku kesempatan berulang kali

Agar aku kembali 

Dalam fitrahku sebagai manusia

Untuk menghambakanMU 

Betapa tak ada apa-apanya aku dihadapanMU "

semua yg berlaku itu adalah dlm ketetapan dari yg Maha Esa

dah tertulis di buku catatan kite yg terpelihara di atas sana